Friday, July 16, 2010


Once again....a long, exhausting day!!! Preparing for my sister in law to arrive with her family. We are so excited to see them!!! I'm starting to feel like I feel a vacation myself.  My neck & back pain is out of control & it gets soooo hard for me to function but, I do what I can. Thank God the boys step in and help do most of the hard stuff when hubby is at work. Not sure what I would do without them. I can't help to want things neat & in order (I'm a's in my nature). Plus, it's the way I was raised. If I made 1 spelling error on my homework, it would be ripped up & I'd have to start again. Whatever questions I got wrong on a test....I'd have to write a hundred times so I wouldn't forget it. Oh, and whoever knows me well, knows that I ALWAYS had to clean.....everything!! I remember not being able to find socks for church & my mom dumped the whole drawer & made me perfectly match all of my socks. It never made me just made me resent my mother & wants things to be perfect & lets face it, that doesn't exist. Anyway, now that I have my own kids, I let them make mistakes, I let them cross things out on their homework even though I secretly wish they would just do it over =) They don't always get every question right on their tests but I applaud them for their effort. They don't always keep their rooms perfectly neat, but I want them to learn that imperfection is okay. I don't want them to be like me.....if I write something & it's not neat enough, I do it over. If there's a mess or something to be done....I stress about it. I'm learning that being a bit sloppy is okay (just take a peek in my closet & you'll see it's true). lol It's crazy that it took years to teach me to go above & be a neat freak and now I ask, "for what"?? I remember I used to argue with my mom about making my bed every morning. I use to say "why does it matter?? No one's gonna see it anyway!!" Now that I am grown....I rarely make my bed =) Trying hard to be perfect knowing that it's never attainable is just setting yourself up for disappointment. It's not as fun as just letting go & being a kid!

~~The fastest way to break the cycle of perfectionism and become a fearless mother is to give up the idea of doing it perfectly - indeed to embrace uncertainty and imperfection.~~

~~There is a kind of beauty in imperfection~~

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